i found God where the west was all but one...

Heads up: the new "The Fray" album is great. It's self titled, and I recommend it to everyone, no joke. My favorite song is their single, "You found me". It's lovely.

My first day of class was yesterday - It's so great to be back in a routine again. I know for awhile, I have just complained about school. Not necessarily my education.. because I absolutley love it. I just feel really left out of the "in crowd". I came to a realization today while sitting in a boring class... The Lord brings me to the wilderness here. He puts me in a situation he constantly reminds me of his love for me. He puts me here so I can draw closer to him. I may not be in with the "in crowd" or even have many friends in general... but thats just not what this life is about, to be honest. I need the wilderness... Despite how sometimes it is so very ugly, depressing, and lonely. It's what I need.

I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place, lately. I don't prefer to go into much detail, but I would like to say that sometimes, I throw out the phrase, "I deserve so much better"... but deep in my heart, I don't even believe that. Love is a funny thing, you know. Somedays I pray everyone is right, and some i hope and fight for everyone in the world to be completley wrong. Yes, sorry this is extremely vague.