Well It happened again. It usually happens about in the same time as a plateau in my spiritual walk (coincidence?).
Of course, its a boy.
And of COURSE, it's the same boy.
I really can't take this anymore.
My parents think we are getting married.
His parents think we are getting married.
His siblings think we are getting married.
WE think we are getting married.
but we also realize how terribly wrong we are for each other.
Well, maybe on my end. I feel I would actually be a pretty good fit for him. But him for me? HECK NO. Well. Yes, except for one huge huge concept:
He doesn't love Jesus like a man should.
Which is my biggest problem with him. actually, my only problem with him.
He also says he doesn't have the desire, longing, or devotion like I have to my King.
Well, dangit. I mean, at least if he had the desire, I could compromise, right? I mean really... it sucks feeling like you are throwing the love of your life out of the window. Someone (personality wise) that you could see yourself with for the rest of your life. All because of one thing.
But its the biggest thing.
And in my sinful, human mind... this doesn't all seem to add up.
Oh Lord, Guard my heart. Love me more and more intimate than any man ever will. I pray for his heart God. Not because I want to date him, but because I want him to long for you. I want him to experience and love you more than he ever has. Lord, you are good.
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2 Cor 6:14-18 "Be not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship does righteousness have with unrighteousness?
And what communion does light have with darkness?
And what concord does The Messiah have with Belial?
Or what portion does one who believes with an infidel?
And what agreement does the temple of G-D have with idols?
For you are the temple of The Living G-D; for it is as G-D has said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them; and I will be their G-D, and they shall be MY people.
Therefore come out from among them, and be separate, say's The LORD, and do not touch the unclean thing; and I will receive you, and will be a Father unto you, and you shall be MY sons and daughters, say's The LORD Almighty."
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