Nothing intelligent.

The other day, I realized something about myself. Somewhere in the past semester (Spring '10), I really stopped relying on Christ. That changes your life, you know? Thinking you can do it on your own. I've been taking my own burdens - the burdens of others, even. Not working it out, and bottling this in has caused me to lose trust in the King.

I realized how dumb I was being towards people - as a Child of God - I was hateful. I was annoyed. I was short. I wasn't listening.

All this to say, sorry that I lost sight of our Savior and King. I'm sorry for not leading how I should.

Forgive me, understand that I'm in a different place right now - you may have had a spiritual high this summer - but I didn't. Please, understand that I am crying out to God asking Him to move the clouds.

Skewl is bak

Well. Here we are. This time tomorrow, I'll be back at school - in small town, America. I can almost smell the putrid funk coming from the mill now.

This year makes me really apprehensive. It's my last year of school, as long as things go as planned. I want my senior year to be fun, exciting, memorable... and spirit filled.

This summer has been a spiritual drought for me. I am currently is desperate need for a downpour of the Holy Spirit. I feel like right now, I'm walking on dry land. I want water to be so high I have to swim. I want to get out of this depression/drought season with the Lord. I've learned through my church, that following Christ isn't hard. I need to put hardships behind me, and run towards the cross, full speed, without looking back.

I'm going to have one of the biggest opportunities of my life this year - discipleing 8 girls. My job 'requires' me to spend one-on-one time with these girls... which makes me so excited. I want to live life with them as we seek our savior together.

I have less than a year to find a big-girl-job. Yiiiikes. This scares me. Do I move overseas? Do I find a job here in OKC? I feel like I have so many options ahead of me.

So, I guess I'm asking... Will you pray for me as I start school?

1. Pray for my spiritual life. Pray that I don't allow the enemy to keep me down.
2. Pray for my senior year - that is it FUN, and EXCITING!
3. Pray for the girls I'll be spending one on one time with - pray that they have a passion and desire to seek Father together. Pray that this will start a never-ending cycle of d-ship and revival at OBU.
4. Pray for my future - that this year, Father will show me exactly what his Will is for my life.

Alright men, I'm being serious.

So, last post, I said my attempt was not to bash the men. This post. I'm being so for real: STEP up your game.

So, tonight I was having dinner with one of my best friends who I don't get to see often because of the distance/work schedules between us. We were chatting away about life, and her phone goes off. She looks down.. and looks at me and says with a straight face, "Somethings wrong"... And I couldn't understand. She and her boy had just broken up a few days ago.

We drove with silence on the way home. We sat in my living room. And she cried. She didn't talk. And she finally burst into hysterical tears: "Heather, I just don't know what to do. I'm scared". We went to my room to talk, where after a long series, she told me her boyfriend holds her down to yell at her, when she does something wrong, he hits her... and leaves bruises.

Men, It's time to stand up. Fathers, teach your sons how to be men. Christians, leave your circle of christian friends... and go mentor and disciple men who are not getting it.

This is NOT under any circumstances okay.