When you ask God to ruin your life...

Here we go. I had plans, big ones in fact. Let me just be honest [i guess to go along with the entire theme of this blog]... my plans after I graduated were to: get a job. meet a man. get married. follow him.

However, I've been so convicted about this. I am not giving myself an opportunity to live, much less let God lead me where he wants. I had it all figured out.

I haven't been able to sleep very well lately. My mind is constantly turning. So, the other night... er... morning.. at 3:30am, I felt like I needed to read something I had read before. I opened up the Book 'Forgotten God' by Francis Chan. It said,

"I think a lot of us need to forget about God's will for my life. God cares more about our response to His Spirit's leading today, in the moment, than about what we intend to do next year. In fact, the decisions we make next year will be profoundly affected by the degree to which we submit to the Spirit right now, in today's decisions. It is easy to use the phrase, "God's will for my life" as an excuse for inaction or even disobedience. It's much less demanding to think about God's will for your future than it is to ask Him what He wants you to do in the next ten minutes. It's safer to commit to following him someday instead of this day." (p. 120)

I'm going to do something great. I'm going to follow what I know the Holy Spirit is saying. Instead of fulfilling my plans of getting a good job after I graduate. I'm 65% sure I'm moving to another country for awhile. To experience the world. To experience God's people. To teach. To share.

I don't like to act like a charity case, but I would really appreciate your prayers. This is not what I had imagined doing. I'm literally going to take a leap of faith.... Across an ocean.